Ready to let go?

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"yes, patutlah nampak familiar, muka awak macam professor yang jalan2 kat HUKM"

I had to make sure I didn't laugh out loud when I heard this... during my interview this morning..
This definitely made may day..
I wish I can become one of the psychology professor there..LOL..
I am still in love with psychology to be honest..
I've been trying hard to look for a job that is related to psychology but apparently it is really challenging..
However, I did start to look for a job that is near to psychology like Human Resources or Research or data analyst...
However, when I told some people about it.. their respond will be like..
"Do you even know what HR is?"
"Are you sure HR?"

I was hoping to get some positive support..
so I asked them..

"why not?"
"why can't a psychology graduate work in HR department?"
"is it that weird?"

just so you know, psychology is really broad.. usually people with psychology graduate kalau tak jadi consultant or working in a psychology centre most of them memang ada kat HR..

"Tak sayang ke psychology?"

Am I ready to let go psychology?
Not really.. lagi pun for me psychology is very important in every day life.. not only like what people say observing people behaviour but also, we can actually understand ourself more and we kind of like know how to behave in a certain situation..

Lagi pun mmg rezeki tu akan ada kat mana-mana kan...
yang penting usaha :)
and I am strong enough to stand alone..
because three years ago..
I have done that..
if I have the same situation while I am in Malaysia..
I am okay with it..
sebab selama ni pun..
I am a lone-wolf aka a lone-ranger..
no big deal..

as long as I have some close friends that are clicked..
I am okay.. .
because this kind of friends other than my own sister I have another friend who will always be there for me..
Kamsahmnida kawan..
May Allah bless you...

p.s: melainkan this kwn dah kawen.. so I have to back off lah.. takkan nak kacau kot.. haahaaa -gilos-

p.s: be strong enough to stand a lone and to learn loads of new things.. because eventually people, the will leave..

:D

Interview+People+Experience

LOL..

I think this will be an 'EMO' kind of post jugak..
I was hoping that I can bring positivity in this blog..
but I admit.. sometimes I fail to do so..
because I am just human..
I fall down sometimes..
But people, they never realised that because I rarely tell them..
my fault I guess? hahaha

Anyway..
Now, being in Malaysia..
I am busy looking for a job..
yes I am still jobless.. Maybe belum rezeki lagi kot..
however, I am not giving up sebab the word 'give up' tak pernah ada dalam kamus hidup..

Dalam banyak2 interview that I have been going..
Two days ago punya interview was a bit challenging..
not because of the question (but I have to admit sebab selalu interview I need to do it in English, tiba2 depa suruh I sepak in bahasa and engllish.. NERVOUS gila..LOL)
For the first time in my life..
Suddenly one of the interviewers said " Just because you are UK graduate, that doesn't mean you are suitable for this job"

First, I never said anything about being a UK graduate. I just kept quiet until he brought it up. However, what I did was just smiled.
I can't stop smiling. Second, I don't know what is the reason he brought up that matter. In my thoughts; maybe he doesn't like people that was graduated from the UK or maybe he was just trying to see how I react to his statement. What I did was senyum and said " saya faham maksud encik"

Sometimes, I do feel that it is important too for the interviewer to show their charisma and good attitude when he or she is interviewing a freshgrad or people. They need to consider people who went for their interview. Those peopel might be working with them and help them to make sure the company is doing well.. Remember psychology is all about human behaviour? And actually it is a general thing too.. From your behaviour people can read you.. anyway.. I would like to thank that person sebab you taught me a lot.. especially on how to deal with challenging person.

Thank you :)

And thank you for spending some times for the interview session..
Really appreciate it..

And a little encouragement and supportive words from a big boss like you might brighten a day for people who never give up in looking for a job.. honestly.. May Allah bless you :)

Everybody is Changing

because I was not in the picture, and you dragged me down and made me believe that I was one of the Clan.. but you just used me for you own good. you are the person that I think the most when people talk about trust. however, now I realised that you are no longer that person. you betrayed me and betray the friendship that I've been cherish. I am a bit upset. but you don't realise it, because for you I'm no longer the friend that you always look up for. I am only the friend that you call when you need HELP. well,
I did not expect this to happen. but I thank God that I realise this earlier than I thought. We are still friends but I think let's just be friends. If you read this some day.. I hope you realised that I am hurt now.. May Allah bless you :)

Teringat...

Hahaha..
yes..
i still remember, when i was in  my secondary school...
masa tu nak habis sekolah dah..  i was in form 2..
one of my classmate.. came to me and ask me to accompany her to the ASPURI (ascaram puteri/ girl's hostel).. there was some benches along the way..

The girl : Finas.. kite duduk kejap..
Me: okay... letih ke...?
The girl: Takde lah... nak borak2 kejap...
Me: borak ape..?
The girl: kita nak bagi tahu ni... Sebenarnya kite tak suka Finas
Me: Okay.. kenapa tiba2 bagi tahu..?
The girl: saje..
Me: takpe lah.. awak ade hak awak nak suarakan pendapat..
The girl : Jangan lah marah kite sebab Finas terlalu lembut, senang nak senyum..
Me: itu dah diri kita tak boleh nak ubah (that time i thought because i was new at that school memanglah tak semua orang suka kan, that's normal)
The girl : sorry taw..
Me: don't be.. biasa je...

that was the first time a classmate talk to me directly...macam tu... terkejut..? not really... pelik? yes.. ape motif..? not sure..

Anyway.. the point here is that...
Apa pun orang cakap pasal kite....
Ingat, kite adalah kite... there is  no need for us to change because org kata dia tak suka kite..
If they don't like us.. then, let it be..
As long as our family and close friends kenal kita.. faham kita... itu dah cukup bagus...

and this incident taught me that bukan semua orang suka kita... and i don't have time to please people..
baik mcm mana pun kite... mesti ade sth or someone yang akan keluarkan kelemahan kite=)

so terima lah pendapat mereka dgn senyuman yang paling manis... sbb, tak semua pendapat tu btol...
it is just the matter of opinion...

be cool.. =)

"Tak mungkin ku percaya.... Kata-kata yang penuh dusta...Hanya lah bibir berkata yang memilukan...Menambah bengang rasa hampa..Kerunsingan diriku terasa.." - akim; bengang

Ethics..

At last..
Done with ethics..
But there is no time to relax..
loads of things to read...
loads of things to digest ...
but tomorrow...
shopping... this is therapy for me...haha.

Draggy...

haha...
i hope you are doing well....
i am not sure whether you are still one of my followers on blog or not..
just to let you know..
andai kata kite lost contact nanti...
just remember that..
i am grateful that we used to be close friends...
i am grateful to know how wonderful you are as a friend..
just hoping that you are having a good time there (wherever you are now)..
take care...

no heart feelings no hurt feelings...
just be happy =)

p.s: i do miss the moment when we text each other since i was in form 2 until the day before i came here...

yeah just realised that.. the moment i put my steps in this country.. everything change...
and i have no regret... =)
this has taught me... a lot...

=)

LelakiBudimanWanitaJelitawan

As I walked trough the field near the LRC, it was foggy this morning. I can't see all those people who walked indirect way towards me.. However, when I almost reached the stairs that can help me shortened my 10 minutes walk to the LRC, I saw this shadow of two guys from afar.. I don't know why my mind said " you know those guys".. At the same time my eyes was looking at them and they were beside me. I just gave them a quick look.. Guys when I said a quick look I intentionally use jelingan.. So, yeah with a serious face.. And yes I knew them.. Two malaysian guys yang not really gentleman because they cut my que at the guard house few weeks back.. Haha.. Few weeks back I was so pissed off with those guys.. But luckily they apologize but still.. Where are those gentlemen or what we called lelaki2 budiman...? Come on.. Malaysian..? Some of them are budiman for example my friends.. haha.. puji kawan sendiri.. but yeah sampai sekarang.. memang most of my friends are lelaki budiman.. i would not say that girls yang lemah lembut lady like ala2 cinderella or disney's princess still exist, but yeah.. lelaki budiman and wanita jelitawan dah semakin berkurang.. ye ke..? maybe.. maybe not..

Asslamualaikum..

hi.. i just came back from london few hours ago.. i had a great fun in london... well.. why not... sy bukan robot nak bace journals 24/7.. otak dah pening but.. what to dooo... kena la release stress.. once i start to update my blog, i shall forget my twitter and other social networking thingy.. i like to focus on one thing.. so for this sem.. i choose you.. my blog... i know my english language is still bad.. and i am working really *damn* hard to improve it... i'll post more if i have time... it is kiasu time.. monday-friday... hahaha... take care... p.s: a special thanks to nana-chan for the hospitality in london...

MasA

setiap orang perlukan masa untuk bersendirian..

setiap orang itu adalah salah seorang dari manusia kat muka bumi ini..

begitu juga saya...

saya perlukan masa untuk bersendirian...

i'll be back...

but not sure.. bila...

just hope that..

u all semua take care..

semoga jumpa lagi...

nothing will be uploaded in this blog starting from today...

Assalamualaikum..


=)

credit: Islamic Quotes

Flexible...? not flexible..

well..
as time goes by...
some of my flatmate already know my attitude let it be the positives one and also the negatives one..
anyway..

as some of you know.. i hate it when people playing around with my time..
because for me 'masa itu emas'...
and i also hate when someone has this last minute change of plan without any good reason...

well.. that are the reasons why my flatmate said i am not flexible..
i know.. i know..
i tried to change once to be more flexible when i was in HELP...
but it did not give any goods to me and also my team-mate (group assignment)..
so i thought it is best to be a person that really take seriously when it comes to 'time'.. haha...
anyway....

should i change to be more flexible..?
i don't know...
we'll see how..
banyak lagi masa nk berubah as in the attitude lah...
just hope for the best..

Rindu..

ahaha..
few weeks ago.. my flatmate and i were talking about games...
not nowadays kind of games.. electronic games, fb and what not..
we were talking about 'the old' games...
i feel lucky because i was given the chance to enjoy playing

1-ice water
2-police entry
3-datuk harimau
4- batu seremban
5- lompat getah
6- galah panjang
7-teng teng
8- a,e,i,o,u stop
9-bola sepak (okaay.. when i was in primary school) haahaa!!
10- main tarzan ( we used to have a river near our primary school, and our ustaz craeted this long rope and tied it near the big pokok... it was so cool)

well, children nowadays.. they did not have the chance to experience this kind of games.. rugi.. seriously rugi....

if we want to talk about cartoon...
my favourite cartoons dulu
1-usop santorian
2-kluang man
3- lat the kampung boy
4-kimba the white lion
5- anak-anak sidek

haahaa.. those were the days...
so i will leave you with one ost from one of the cartoons.. enjoy...

Hlovate

owwwwhh..
how i wish my hlovate's novels are here with me right now...
need something to read yang really bg kesedaran and also motivation..
in 'hlovate' way..

stalker..

haahaa..
if we stalk other people's profile..
tak kisah lah..
twitter ke FB ke.. tumbler ke.. blog ke...
kadang2.. when we know the truth...
kita yang geram plus sakit hati..
wat pe kan..
wahahaha...
better stop it..
pastu kite marah kat org tu...
merajuk dgn org tu..
waaahh... seriously...
i have to stop this....
membebankan kepala jer...
rasa nk bg penampaq pun ada...
bukan kat sapa2 lah.. kat diri sendiri...
=p

Menipu..

yup...
bersangka buruk tu...
is not a good thing....

BUT..

kalau alasan demi alasan..
dan drama demi drama...

orang pun akan meluat..
i am not going to help you dah..
like seriously...

don't ask my help if you like to waste my time..
macam suke hati je nak tak nak datang without any text or email..

sy pegang prinsip 'sharing is caring'..
saya suke tolong...
tapi saya juga ade prinsip..
'masa itu emas'...

so terima kasih for wasting my time...
nk journals or any recording...
sila minta kat org lain...

p.s: saya hanya insan biasa yang ade hati dan perasaan.. plus tak sempurna pun

Angin = D

"Angin kau nyayikan lagu
untuk permataku tenang selalu
bayu sampaikan berita
daku kini ceria aman dan bahagia
selimutkan rinduku bersama malam mu"
- Mirwana

Face Book..

seriously i hate you...

i need to deactivate you...

soon!!

you have wasted my time...

hahaha..

p.s: actually diri sendiri yang salah.. but nak shift the blame to someone else.. sorry FB =D

the Sacarstic Laugh..

i had to do an interview with a flatmate for my second lab report...
guess what..? when i listen back to the recording..
i hear my self laughing and suddenly...

i think i laugh in a sarcastic tone...
i was like... oh no.. someone was right...
but when i asked my friends.. they did not find it sarcastic..
huhuhu..
macam mana...?
i seriously cannot change the way i laugh...
since HELP...
but i am lucky to have friends yang very understanding and sincere..
seriously.. for those who has this hard feeling or hurt feelings because the way i laugh..
i am so sorry...
i have no intention to hurt your feeling..
like.. seriously....

=)

i Miss My Friends...

SMad Klana's Wondergirls... hahaha...
geng2 smad Klana...

Geng2 HELP uni =)


p.s: i miss my girls.... =) semoga sentiasa berada dalam redha Allah dan semoga sentiasa happy..May Allah bless you.. All of you =D

nasyid again...

okay.. seriously...
i am into nasyid right now...
sebab...
i don't know...
wording mereka sgt powerful.....
=)

p.s: kata lah saya skema and saya tak kisah...

bubbye korean songs... mat selleh's song.. even malaysian indie songs...
nnt sy dgr lagu2 anda lagi okay..
skrg mmg i am on nasyid mood...
owwhh yeeaahhh !! =D